Omar Gonzalez is one of the most decorated players in the modern history of American soccer:-- 2008 NCAA Division I champion with Maryland;
Afterwards, Gonzalez was inconsolable, but he was one of the few American players who faced the media and he apologized for the own goal.
"I think for myself, it's one that will haunt me forever," he said. "Don't even know how to put it into words what I'm feeling. What was supposed to be a celebration is now ... I don't even know what to say. It's terrible."
The USA's elimination still depended on two other results -- Panama and Honduras both coming from behind to beat Costa Rica and Mexico, respectively -- and Gonzalez said he knew right away when he looked over at the bench and the faces of his teammates that it was not good.
"Just want to say sorry to the fans -- all the U.S. fans that were pulling for us, that wanted to go to Russia and that believed in us," he added. "We let down an entire nation today."
Gonzalez was then off to suffer in silence and get on with his career, a career that has since seen him change Mexican clubs, moving from Pachuca to Atlas in 2018, and return to the national team for the first time since Couva with his recall for the friendlies against Ecuador and Chile.
"It's definitely lingered," he said on Tuesday at a media roundtable at the USA's hotel. "It stayed with me for a long time. I don't think I'll ever be over it, but I am past it emotionally. As an athlete, you can't stay with those things too long or else you lose what you're doing at the moment, right? I still have teammates on the field that rely on me to do my job at my club."
Gonzalez says now he was in shock after the loss and in a bad place, and one of the hardest parts was that he had to suffer alone. Some of his teammates -- Michael Bradley and Jozy Altidore, notably -- were jeered mercilessly but at least they had each other.
"I wasn't able to talk to anybody who was there with me," he said, "because after the loss you all go your separate ways."
LA Galaxy, MLS Cup 2009: Back row (L-R): David Beckham, Omar Gonzalez, Gregg Berhalter, Todd Dunivant, Jovan Kirovski, Donovan Ricketts; Front row: Sean Franklin, Landon Donovan, Chris Birchall, Mike Magee, Edson Buddle.
But Gonzalez knew he had to get on with his career and he turned to someone whom he had turned to before and who had been at his side -- literally -- when he
started out as a pro with the Galaxy: Gregg Berhalter.
Berhalter had come back from Europe, where he spent the first 16 years of his playing career, and finished up with the Galaxy, starting with Gonzalez as the two center backs on the 2009 team that won the MLS Supporters' Shield but fell to Real Salt Lake in a shootout in MLS Cup.
In 2011, his last year with the Galaxy, Berhalter became a player-assistant coach, a job Gonzalez said he did with enthusiasm, showing up 40 minutes before practice to line the field with cones and designing passing drills. By then, Berhalter had become a mentor to Gonzalez.
"From that point on, he was always hard on me and trying to get me to improve and teaching me things," Gonzalez said. "We built this relationship and I sought out his input because I valued how he sees the game. Any time I had to make a big decision or things like that, I would always reach out to him."
Right after Couva, Gonzalez contacted Berhalter, who was then the coach of the Columbus Crew, and he asked for his former teammate's help to find a tactical analyst who could work on his game.
"I started paying this guy," he said, "and understanding the game better, understanding my position with the ball, without the ball, things like that."
A year and a half later, Gonzalez says he is a different player.
"I really put in the work to improving where people might think I had many faults," he said. "I really took a look at myself and said, 'Where can I improve on my game? And the things I do well, can I do them even better? And also improve the things I don't do so well.' Over this time period, I really improved on the ball and in many areas. It's been hard work, but that's the great part of doing what you love and trying to master your craft. It's daily grind of putting in the work."
Gonzalez is 29 with no guarantee of being around the national team through the end of the new cycle so he says he's mindful of staying in the present and just relishes the chance to play for Berhalter.
"I've always told him that I would love to play for him," he said.
Photos: Robin Alam/Icon Sportswire, Andy Mead/YCJ/Icon Sportswire.